Wow! It's the first time I visited this blog of mine since November of last year. Wow, the hiatus!

Work has been crazy for the past year. My day is mostly meetings - meeting with the Clients, meeting with the Solutions Team, meeting with the Management, and so on. It goes from 5 to 7 straight hours a day. Every.Single.Day. I can't even leave my cubicle to get myself a bottle of water, or go for a really quick pee, or feed myself for lunch, snacks, or dinner. GAHHDDDD!

I can't begin to imagine taking another promotion considering the workload and all the tasks that are expected of me at the moment. A promotion would mean more workload (tons.. if I can measure them), more meetings, more responsibilities, less time for life. HAHHAHAH =)) Now, I realize what long-time work I want; I want to be a House Manager. Yes, a !@$!#!#$!!!' cool House Manager (if you know what I mean).

I know I sound like (and I might be) ranting already, but I'm still thankful and I feel blessed that I have this work. Not only it does sharpen my mind (have to do a lot of analysis to ensure that we met our customer's need), it also helps me keep my sanity intact specially that the beau is away for more than a month already. I miss him. I also honestly feel lucky that I've been hired in the company I'm working for because they do have the best health care in the country (that I know of), which parents can be enrolled to.

Well, I'll have to give myself a pat on the back for this first blog entry this year. I'm hopeful that this won't be the last entry this year. I miss writing. I miss blogging. I miss my old blog site. :)

Christmas Wish

Just a month more and we will be teasing the season to be jolly, and I have all the reasons to get all excited for Christmas 2013. Books! Yes, books. They are always on my wishlist and I just can't wait indulging and losing myself again in my make-believe reality. :D

So for this coming Christmas, I really want to get a boxed-set of Cindy Williams Chima's THE SEVEN REALMS and Jackson Pearce's FAIRY-TALE INSPIRED BOOKS. Oh! I really get all giddy with excitement for these babies. :D

Cindy William Chima's THE SEVEN REALMS

Left to Right: The Gray Wolf Throne, The Exiled Queen, The Demon King, The Crimson Crown

(book 5 will be released next year)

Jackson Pearce's FAIRY-TALE INSPIRED BOOKS

Left to Right: Sisters Red (for Red Riding Hood), Sweetly (for Hansel and Gretel), Fathomless (for Little Mermaid), Cold Spell (for The Snow Queen)

Thursday Movie: Thor 2

Finally Thor 2 hit the Philippine Theaters last Wednesday, October 30, and I got to watch it after its Premier Night in the country. What can I say? It definitely was way better than the first installment. I like that they put humor in the story and Loki did really great in doing those punchlines. Darcy was quite hilarious and it made her look pretty when she tried to be funny. The movie made me love Loki even if he was the bad guy in the first movie. Thor has the body; he's the good guy; he's the hero. Loki is bad; he's funny; and he's quite attached to his mother even if Frigga isn't his true mother. And can I say, we girls love that bad, funny, and passionate guy. 

I'm not really a fun of comics and I didn't get the chance to read Marvel's Thor, but I'm totally loving how they interpreted the story into moving pictures. As a movie junkie, I'd say Thor 2 is a 9 out of 10. I'm not spilling any spoilers here, so you guys should start making your way to your nearest cinemas now! ;) 

We see our better selves in the eyes of those who love us

How well do we really know ourselves? Sometimes, no matter how skinny, good looking, rich, smart, and strong we are, we still have that moment when our insecurities start creeping in our veins. Once that happens, we sit down and sulk, and then we seem to be fatter, a bit dull and boring, unsatisfied with the things that we have, inferior, and weak than we truly are. We are only as good as we imagine and think ourselves to be, and sometimes, we can only see how nice and great we are in the eyes of the ones we love.

While reading Cassandra Clare’s Clockwork Prince, I stumbled on this excerpt: “While he lived and they were friends, Yu Boya wrote some of the greatest music that we know. Would he have been able to do that alone? Our hearts, they need a mirror, Tessa. We see our better selves in the eyes of those who love us. And there is a beauty that brevity alone provides.” This is James Carstairs words to Tessa Gray, and this is one of my favorite lines that I came across in a book. In times when we are just by ourselves, with no friends and fun around, we tend to belittle ourselves and underestimate what we truly can do, and we forget how beautiful and capable we are when we start our reveries.

We are not as bad as we think we are. In our parents’ eyes, we will always be beautiful and will always be a source of their joy. In our siblings’ eyes, we might be the most annoying creature that exists, but to them, we will always be the best friend they asked God for. In our other half’s eyes, we will always be the loveliest person that brings them with so much happiness, and we will always be the reason why they choose to be good. In the eyes of the ones we love, we will always be enough. In the eyes of the ones we love, we will always be the best person that we can be. For the ones that we love, we will always want to be our better selves. For the ones we love, we become the person we never thought we can be – a person full of love, greatness, compassion, and wisdom.

We always have a choice to be the best version of ourselves – and most of the time, we achieve that through the help of the people we love, people who encourage and love us unconditionally. J

"We see our better selves in the eyes of those who love us." - James Carstairs

Sometimes, we are not as bad as we think we are, or how others see and think of us. Sometimes, people who love us are the ones who know us most - the ones who see the goodness in us. -- KMP

"Why do you love me?"

“Do you love me?” when we, girls, ask this question and get a yes from our other half, most of the time we have our “Why do you love me?” follow up questions. Does it really matter? Of course it does matter, big time. But why do we ask this question from them – what’s really our reason?

 I always ask this question to my boyfriend and he would always answer me with “I love you because you love me” and yes, I never was satisfied with that answer because it’s so plain and dull (hahaha). Then, I start asking myself – what do I want hear for an answer? Do I want “I love you because you are the most understanding person I’ve ever met” or “I love you because you are so charming and pretty” or “I love because you always make me laugh” or “I love you because you know me so well” answers. Well, I really don’t know.

One time, my friend and I had a discussion about this and she said that she asks the same question to her boyfriend, and we came to realize that girls ask this question because, somehow, we are secretly hoping to be appreciated by them – fishing for compliments. Hahaha, funny but it’s actually true. Most of us have this need to be appreciated, to be praised, to be noticed, and to be admired, and we try to get those compliments by asking our other halves over and over again – “Why do you love me?”

It hit me. I don’t really want an “I love you because you’re the most beautiful girl I’ve ever laid eyes on, because you’re smart and funny, because you understand and know me so well” answer. Because what happens if I’m no longer pretty in his eyes, or I grow dull and slow, or if I fail to understand him and he suddenly becomes a stranger to me? I want my boyfriend’s “I love you because you love me” because I know I’ll love him for the longest time – and with that and with his answer, then I know his love for me will last as long as it takes. J

I love you because I have so much love to give

 and because you love me, too. :)

Yaey for today! :)

It has been more than 6 months already since the last time I published an entry for my blog. Boyfriend has been encouraging me twice a week to go back to writing or blogging. So, here I am. :)

Yesterday was our payday, and I guess almost everyone felt like they were millionaires for a day. Lunch outs in expensive restaurants or dinners in fine dining places were agreed on and I bet everyone was enjoying the sumptuous meal they’ve feasted on. Ladies, I bet, were in Shopping Malls (no longer drooling this time) owning their favorite items, which of course they’d be using as their “ootd” to be posted in Instagram *wink*. Isn’t Pay Day a happy day, guys? It is for me, of course.

I got restless yesterday since I was wearing my high heels (I’m only used to wearing wedges), and got frustrated because I wanted to buy my own guilty pleasure, but was not able to. I can’t do long walks on high heels. I know, poor me *sad face*. So I needed to wait a day more for me to roll on the floor with happiness *teehee*.

So, yaey for today! Armed with my favorite slash over-used pair of wedges, I braved the heat and walked the long walk (so much drama, I know.) just to purchase some good reads. Woot! Hello, Clockwork Prince and Clockwork Princess! Clockwork Angel wasn’t available in Fullybooked, so, I guess I just have to check out National Bookstore later. I first heard of Clockwork Angel from a childhood friend of mine, and I didn’t find it interesting then. My mind changed and I got really interested in Cassandra Clare’s Infernal Devices when an officemate of mine was able to convince me that this series is seriously a great read. Plus, the paperback covers are really tempting me to open these babies already, but I still can’t *sad face again* since I don’t have the book 1 yet. I’m so excited already to get hold of Clockwork Angel. :D

Oh well, Pay Day’s really a time to pamper ourselves, and I love my pampering moments. :D

And oh, I’m actually planning to do some book reviews on the books I’ve read and will be posting them here in my blog. This will help me remove the virtual cobwebs from my blog. Hehe.

Yaey for today! :)

Paul McCartney's This Never Happened Before

This song's been raping my head for the second day. Hope you enjoy the song as much as I did. :)

I'm very sure, this never happened to me before
I met you and now I'm sure
This never happened before

Now I see, this is the way it's supposed to be
I met you and now I see
This is the way it should be

This is the way it should be, for lovers
They shouldn't go it alone
It's not so good when your on your own

So come to me, now we can be what we want to be
I love you and now I see
This is the way it should be
This is the way it should be

This is the way it should be, for lovers
They shouldn't go it alone
It's not so good when your on your own

I'm very sure, this never happened to me before
I met you and now I'm sure
This never happened before (This never happened before)
This never happened before (This never happened before)
This never happened before (This never happened before)
This never happened before